Hair Counter

16 01 2011

I have been reflecting on the topic of faith recently. How do we grow in faith? How do I battle those fears and anxieties that grip my soul as I take each step? Something I have been thinking about since reading a recent blog post (I can’t remember from which ministry) and going to the Christian Medical and Dental Association retreat is who or what do I place trust in.

In medicine, we are taught to trust in studies that have more comprehensive information because they ought to provide us with the most accurate facts. Thus, systematic reviews and meta-analyses are typically the most reliable publications. When I am seeking an answer to aquestion I will trust the person that I know to be most knowledgeable. So in medical school I trust the well-trained lecturing physicians who have been teaching for decades. Then comes the younger professors and then the bottom of the totem pole of lecturers would be those with a master’s degree. No offense, but that’s how my mind works during lecture. I am most skeptical of answers that my classmates have to offer since we, as medical students, have a very limited knowledge base and have a tendency to make up answers to sound smart.

In terms of seeking spiritual wisdom, I tend to trust those people who I believe have the greatest knowledge and understanding of the Bible. They have thoroughly studied the Scriptures and wrestled through different theological issues. I know that they will give me the most biblically sound answer they can provide. Wouldn’t it be amazing to combine all their knowledge into a super knowledgeable entity that could answer all my questions with all the knowledge in the world. (I’m picturing something like Zordon from power rangers, but a lot smarter) There are some people I know that seem to know everything (you know who you are- except if you admitted it you’d be prideful haha), but think about if all of them could combine their knowledge. How much more would I trust that person?

All of this to say that all of this earthly knowledge pales in comparison to the omniscient God we worship. The knowledge we possess is a drop in the bottomless bucket of God’s knowledge. If I sincerely believed that God knows all that He truly does know, I would have no doubts. My faith would be solid. Yet, I don’t. I trust people more than God. I trust myself more than Him. God numbers the hairs on my head (Luke 12:7) and possesses all knowledge. Still, my faith is weak. If some scientist wanted to know the hairs on someone’s head they would have to constantly follow that person around keeping track of every hair that fell off. I can imagine how frustrated he would be when he had to start over after getting distracted or going on vacation. Or if it was a girl’s head I would tell him to give up, they shed hair like crazy. (It’s true, look at the carpet in their apartments). Anyway, think about all the effort someone would have to put in to know just that one fact. But God knows EVERYTHING. A passage that portrays his knowledge well is Psalm 139, penned by David. I have to tell myself, “Daniel, read this passage with fresh eyes and a humble heart. Read these Scriptures with the understanding that they are the true, inspired words of the Spirit.” How amazingly reassuring they are to my anxious soul.

“O LORD, You have searched me and known me. You know when I sit down and when I rise up; You understand my thought from afar. You scrutinize my path and my lying down, And are intimately acquainted with all my ways. Even before there is a word on my tongue, Behold, O LORD, You know it all. You have enclosed me behind and before, And laid Your hand upon me. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; It is too high, I cannot attain to it.”

Psalm 139:1-6

Those words ought to make me be humbled and repentant in my foolish pride. They ought to give me peace when I am anxious. I pray that they would always pierce my heart. So how am I to grow in faith in such a glorious God? I will risk everything for Him. I will surrender everything and die to self. How do I do that? By daily reminding myself with His truth. I hold in my hands the very inspired words of God which proclaim His omniscience and sovereignty. He knows my steps and I have no cause to be anxious. I pray that I will let go of the control I think I need and place the plans, anxieties, and burdens in God’s control. I know that I will need to daily die to self and inundate myself with the living Bible. But that is what sanctification requires. Perseverance as we fix our eyes on Christ, the author and perfecter of faith (Hebrews 12:1-3). May I do so with joy and honestly pray with David “Search me, O God, and know my heart; Try me and know my anxious thoughts; And see if there be any hurtful way in me, And lead me in the everlasting way.” Psalm 139:23-24 Maranatha.




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